What do you do, when you can't find the words? I've been asking myself that question a lot. It's a slightly less frustrating than the question I was asking myself before. How do I change while staying the same. It's probably not surprising to you that I'm still grappling with both questions.
Of course even if I don't have a definitive answer, I want to continue to create content. So I'm allowing myself to be a writing chameleon. Writing about whatever it is I feel like addressing that day.
Today let's talk about faith. It's not a topic that some people are comfortable discussing. A great deal of my writing would likely lead you to make a few assumptions about me. I'm guessing that the fact I have a strong faith would be at the bottom of that list, if it even made the list at all. I talk to my children every day about finding the magic in all things, but I also teach them about God. We read Bible stories and talk openly about Jesus.
I often struggle to walk with one foot in both worlds. I love to write about dark and scary things one minute, and the next I'm working on creating a devotional for myself or my children. I never considered these things a contradiction, until people started assuming things about me. I tried at first to change myself to fit the mold, but it only made me feel claustrophobic. I couldn't find the words anymore. I can't tell even the scariest of stories without God.
So, does this change your opinion of me? I certainly hope not. Lots of incredible fantasy writers were also Christian. J.R.R. Tolkien and C.S. Lewis are two of my favorites To be honest, even just taking the time to share this with you helps me start to see the words, helps my mind feel less dark and confused.
I'll soon be sharing a series on death in America, and excerpts from my novel. The may seem dark, but if you look closely you'll see the lighter sides of me. You'll see that my faith plays a part in all I do.
Remember to be yourself. Even if the puzzle pieces that make up your soul don't always seem to go together. Even Italian dressing separates, but if you shake it up, it makes something truly wonderful.
Thursday, June 25, 2020
Tuesday, June 16, 2020
New adventures in writing
Hello friends!
It's wonderful to be sharing the inner workings of my mind with you again. While I was away I had continued writing, but only for myself. I had to find a better way of sharing with you. Through the Covid-19 pandemic and personal struggles I was able to answer a question that has plagued me for quite some time. This question was who am I as a writer. I feel as though I stumbled into the marvelous land of poetry. I love being a poet, but I began to feel as though it wasn't allowing me to say all the things I desperately wanted to say. Will I still write poetry? Absolutely, but it's not the only thing that defines me as a writer.
I began to take a in-depth look at my life. I discovered that the things that I considered my biggest flaws, might actually be my strengths. If you know me personally, you know that I've spent my life as a professional dreamer. Moving from one thing to the next. All the while writing about every detail of that thing I claimed to love so much. My Husband still reminds me of the evening he came home from work to find me surrounded by Astronomy books, filling up one of my millions of spiral notebooks with ideas. I looked up at him and announced that I was going to "be an Astronaut!"
Admittedly this story has always embarrassed me. I've come a long way, worked on my physical and mental health, and grown up in many ways. My ability to research a topic to death has served me well as I've worked side by side with medical professionals to unravel the medical mystery that is my 10 year old son. I've also grown tired of my brain's wild rollercoaster of new and improved things that I should be.
Over the weekend, sitting with my Husband I expressed all of this to him for probably the millionth time. Except I said something that would change my whole perspective. I declared "I'm done trying to be all of these things, I'm just going to write about them. Even if I have to write a thousand research papers!"
The words fell out of my mouth with such ease, it's as if the answer had been inside me all along. I won't go into my newest venture here, but you will be able to read all about it shortly. My excitement to explore new things doesn't have to stop, and it never will. I hope to bring you interesting information and my own unique perspective.
For those who have been on this rollercoaster with me I share a heartfelt thank you. Especially to my Husband and Mom who often remind me to sit down and write. If I ever write anything you enjoy reading, remember one of them encouraged me to put pen to paper.
I look forward to writing about a variety of topics and I hope you will enjoy reading what I share.
Have a magical day!
Kates
It's wonderful to be sharing the inner workings of my mind with you again. While I was away I had continued writing, but only for myself. I had to find a better way of sharing with you. Through the Covid-19 pandemic and personal struggles I was able to answer a question that has plagued me for quite some time. This question was who am I as a writer. I feel as though I stumbled into the marvelous land of poetry. I love being a poet, but I began to feel as though it wasn't allowing me to say all the things I desperately wanted to say. Will I still write poetry? Absolutely, but it's not the only thing that defines me as a writer.
I began to take a in-depth look at my life. I discovered that the things that I considered my biggest flaws, might actually be my strengths. If you know me personally, you know that I've spent my life as a professional dreamer. Moving from one thing to the next. All the while writing about every detail of that thing I claimed to love so much. My Husband still reminds me of the evening he came home from work to find me surrounded by Astronomy books, filling up one of my millions of spiral notebooks with ideas. I looked up at him and announced that I was going to "be an Astronaut!"
Admittedly this story has always embarrassed me. I've come a long way, worked on my physical and mental health, and grown up in many ways. My ability to research a topic to death has served me well as I've worked side by side with medical professionals to unravel the medical mystery that is my 10 year old son. I've also grown tired of my brain's wild rollercoaster of new and improved things that I should be.
Over the weekend, sitting with my Husband I expressed all of this to him for probably the millionth time. Except I said something that would change my whole perspective. I declared "I'm done trying to be all of these things, I'm just going to write about them. Even if I have to write a thousand research papers!"
The words fell out of my mouth with such ease, it's as if the answer had been inside me all along. I won't go into my newest venture here, but you will be able to read all about it shortly. My excitement to explore new things doesn't have to stop, and it never will. I hope to bring you interesting information and my own unique perspective.
For those who have been on this rollercoaster with me I share a heartfelt thank you. Especially to my Husband and Mom who often remind me to sit down and write. If I ever write anything you enjoy reading, remember one of them encouraged me to put pen to paper.
I look forward to writing about a variety of topics and I hope you will enjoy reading what I share.
Have a magical day!
Kates
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